Phishie Blog

So I’m getting married in 28 days. I have a beautiful fiance who is incredibly caring, smart (if you ignore that she agreed to marry me), and patient. Everyone keeps asking me if I’m nervous, and over all, not really. Honestly I wish we were already married. A small part of this is incredibly selfish in that we’ve been dating for 3 years now and we decided to do this the right way and wait till marriage for sex. It’s been hard (pun!) but I’m quite certain this was a good and right decision. For the most part, I just want her here so I can see her every day. But deep inside, I do know I’m nervous. Trouble sleeping is always a sign for me that my subconscious is churning away at something and I haven’t been sleeping well of late. I’m not sure if it’s the finality of the commitment, or knowing my life is irrevocably changing. The thought of kids is nice, but terrifying in what it will do to my hobbies and free time. More selfish thoughts I know, but I’m realistic in my feelings. Then there’s my own nagging concerns about my abilities to be a good husband. Ka Mun is wonderfully supportive and willing to bend over backwards to help on stuff. I have seen too many men that take advantage of these traits in their own wives and end up bad husbands. A lot of people get really upset about the roles of a Godly marriage in the bible. They read the whole submissive wife thing and go nuts. Ka Mun I think is happy with this role and wants to the wife God intended. But for the system to work, I need to focus on the male part of that passage that people tend to skip over. As a husband I have to love my wife like Jesus loved the church. People seem to forget Christ was crucified for the church. Biblical husbands are supposed to give everything in their power up to and including their lives for the sake of their wife and family. It is a man like that the wife is to submit to, and a man like that God wants every husband to be. That’s quite a pair of sandals to fill. The fact that I’m concerned about it is good but that doesn’t mean I’ll succeed.

I’m sure I can be an okay husband. In my past I’ve always been thrown into a job or task where I had to sink or swim without knowing how to swim beforehand. My current job has new challenges for me every day which is part of why I like it. The water gets stormy and I adapt and learn to keep myself and those around me all afloat. But I’ve never been an Olympic swimmer. I get good enough to survive at anything I want, but I never master anything. That’s not what I want to do with Ka Mun. I want to be the best husband, but I know I won’t. And I think that’s what I’m nervous about.

I was late this morning (which isn’t exactly a rare thing) but it was for an unusual reason. I was driving along the country backroads that I normally take to avoid traffic when I saw something that took a moment to register.

There was an emu in the middle of the road.

I really need to start carrying a camera around with me. The thing was as big as I am, and I have no experience with emus so I wasn’t getting out of the truck to shepherd it to the farm nearby that I assume it escaped from. I knocked on the door of the house but noone was home. Their neighbor laughed when I told them about it and said “Don’t worry they won’t go far. They have two that get out all the time.” The neighbor didn’t have their phone number. I felt bad leaving it because I was afraid it would get hit by a car but there’s no way with all the trees that I could use my truck to shoo it into their yard.

I’ve stopped to help animals a number of times, like turtles, and a young cow once, but an emu was a new one for me.

If they’re home tomorrow I’ll stop by and make sure it was okay and maybe ask for some ’emu-wranglin’ techniques should I ever counter gigantic birds in the middle of the road again.

I attended Otakon this weekend with GameraBaenre. It was a good time as usual. I didn’t even bring a camera so no pictures from me, but my coworker Ciprian went and is a camera nut so I’ll try to update this post with links to his pictures at some point.

Gamera’s pictures are here.
Official Otakon pictures are here.
Ciprian’s pictures are here

Gamera managed to take two awards at the model competition and gave me his “Best In Show” prize. A Perfect Grade W-Gundam Zero Custom. This thing is massive. I’m scared to even start working on it. I’m not even going to open the box until after I’ve finished my Gouf at least.

Thank you Gamera. I think. You know, you’re a real ass for getting me started on this modeling stuff.

At the show I was going to get some Code Geass models for a diorama idea I had but they sold out of the kit before I could pick it up on Saturday. Probably just as well since they’re some of the first ones out and they weren’t that good looking.

Gamera was nice enough to have me at his house once again for Expo 2008. It was a fun time but I’m posting this way afterwards and don’t remember much right now so I’ll just post the few pics that I took and be done with it.

Since I’m switching to Word Press for a blog style page, I wanted to archive this old link I wrote so it doesn’t get lost. This was my old Anime Expo 06 review page.